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(Excerpt from Lick Me)
Chapter 10
Groupie (Superstar)
Two nights before I left for London,
Paul McGregor cut my hair in a really severe shag. It was quite
short in the front, and it made me feel so vulnerable and naked, I
just wanted to cry. I was going off to face the biggest
artistic challenge of my life and the loss of my long swingy hair
around my face really made me feel insecure. Of course, Herbert
Berghof would have approved of the cut, because he used to say that I
hid behind my hair as if it were curtains.
Later that same night, I dropped the
last tab in my acid stash and went with Priscilla to a press party
for the Mark-Almond Band at the Café Au Go Go. At first
it was all a bit surreal, because Jon Mark, the group's bass player,
unhappy with the sound system, had a bit of a freak-out -- cursing,
swearing, and smashing his mike, amp and guitar, before walking off
stage in disgust. But as the night went on, things really got
interesting. John Hammond, Al Kooper, and Long John Baldry had
an amazing jam session together, and the Mark-Almond Band returned to
the stage and performed brilliantly. And then, at a little
after-show gathering around the backstage piano, John Baldry blew my
mind by reading a couple of my poems aloud. They’d been
published in a local rock and roll newspaper called Zoot,
which Mark-Almond’s PR people had included in their press
kits. It was the first time my poems had ever appeared in print
and that was exciting in itself, but to hear Long John Baldry read
them with that velvet voice of his and
to such a select audience of musicians and industry insiders was
absolutely thrilling for me.
Shawn Phillips was there too, and after
John Baldry's recitation, Shawn and I went to the Fillmore to catch
the Byrds’ last set. We hung out in their dressing room,
along with Elton John, Eric Anderson, and a gospel singer from
Georgia named Mylon. Mylon drove me wild, and it was shameful
how I came on to him, when it was already understood that I was
Shawn's date for the night. But he was so fucking sexy. I just
couldn't help it. Anyway, I later wound up with Shawn at the
Gramercy Park Hotel, where I was rewarded not only with some great
tantric sex (Shawn was a devoted practitioner of yoga and other
spiritual disciplines), but also with witnessing the birth of two new
Shawn Phillips songs.
Nights like that were what I lived for
-- nights that made me realize it was never just about the fucking.
It was always about creation -- inspiring it, rewarding it, being
part of it, and mostly just rejoicing in the fruits of it. When
Shawn wrote those two songs between our bouts of lovemaking, or I
should say as part of our lovemaking, I knew there couldn't help but
be some essence of me in them forever, even if nobody else ever knew
about it, even if Shawn himself never gave it a thought. It was
one of those moments when a groupie knows she's more than a groupie;
she's a muse.
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